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psalm 143:10

it's one of my favorite verses. i use it as a little prayer sometimes when i don't know what to say to God...

"Teach me to do your will, for you are my God. May your gracious Spirit lead me forward on a firm footing."

i've been praying that almost daily for over a year now. and i still really love it.

but today as i was sitting outside in my lawn chair [you can take the boy out of pekin but you can't take the pekin out of the boy], i realized something about the first part of that verse...

"teach me to do your will..." i always wanted that. how awesome would it be if i just always did what God wanted me to? sure, sometimes it would be hard, but it would be worth it.

[i still don't always do God's will but that's another post...]

the "do" part of that is what got me today... to be honest, most of the time i just want my will. and i don't give a lot of thought to what God wants.

i was thinking back to jobs i didn't get or just things that didn't go "according to plan." [i use that term loosely]

i don't like to change up the word of God... but i did ask if he would "teach me to accept your will, for you are my God."